Rain

I did something tonight that I used

to enjoy doing very much, but for one

reason or another (probably sheer laziness),

I stopped doing it...

I went for a walk in the rain.

I had to go to the bank, and the walk there was hurried and not enjoyable at all. But on the way back, I slowed down a little bit and tried to enjoy it.

I was in my own world underneath my black umbrella with one of the spoke-things broken, making a clanking noise evertime I took a step. "December" by Regina Spektor was playing on my iPod. I don't particularily like the whole song, but the beginning is just her playing the piano in a slow and hesitant sort of way, and it just went perfectly with the rain.

December starts on Sunday

Next Sunday, won't you feel happier then?

Turn your room upside down

Turn your down upside

Rumors have started that you are in love again
Rumors that are completely unsubstantiated
Come on and say you're sorry,

Real sorry for the trouble that you caused

Can't you see all this love?

Can't you see all this love?

Sure, I felt a bit soggy, but once you just let go and forget about all of that comfort stuff, you can really enjoy almost anything. Appreciate almost anything. I've been reminding myself of that a lot lately; that when you just take a deep breath and relax, things go much smoother.

Saturday I went swimming in the Bonnechere River. I was sitting on a rock, letting the strong current push the water over my legs, and then I lay back to put my hair in. It was so cold, and I felt my chest tighten and my breath quicken. Instead of jerking my head out of the water, though, I thought to myself: "How can you not take advantage of this?" It was a hot day, and here I was sitting in a river with a strong current to gently massage my muscles and friends around to share it with.

I lay back, closed my eyes, and breathed in the humid air.

It was lovely once I relaxed a bit.

So was my walk this evening, in the rain. I didn't want to come inside.

Good Rain Songs

Blackbird - The Beatles

(I Can't Seem To) Make You Mine - The Clientelle

Choux Pastry Heart - Corrine Bailey Rae
Yesterday - The Beatles

December - Regina Spektor

Here With Me - Dido

Lonely Lonely - Feist

Psychobabble - FrouFrou

All The Wild Horses - Ray Lamontagne

Thinking About You - Norah Jones

Moon River - Patty Griffin

Lady - Regina Spektor

World Keeps Turning - Tom Waits

Crying - Roy Orbison

Ode To Divorce - Regina Spektor